-+Sentiments+-*

My brother came back from camp and he showed this video to me. I Rolled-On-Floor-Laughing-My-Ass-Off.

ROFLMAO

So did my brother for the past week.

LOL

LMAO

Muhahahahhaah!

9.51pm
30th June 2007

Weebly's finally back up! Doesn't feel good when you don't have access to your blog T_T

But since its back up, i'lll treasure it even more >_<

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Went to Calvin to study for our last remaining H1 Physics paper just now at Serangoon Macs.

We were "happily" discussing the physics when a man in his 40s, who later identified himself as James, sat down, on Calvin's side at the long bench, at the table besides us with one of Shrek's lime sundaes and a hot cup of tea.

He turned towards us the moment he sat down and started talking to us, not in the craziest of sense. Although in his Polo-Tee, shorts and slippers, its kind of hard not to think otherwise.

He told us that he'll give us a lecture to "success" but he went off to the loo first. Recording his "lecture" seemed to be the novelest of things to do so i whipped my phone out, while Calvin slipped his slim camera into his slim bag.

James came back, pulled his tables to ours and here we go!

The first question he asked was " are either of you Christian?"
My first reaction was " are you gonna say something that would offend us if we WERE christians?"

But it turns out to be something closer to " are either of you Christian? Cos if you aren't, I'm so goin'na turn you into one right here right now" kind of thing.

The whole lecture was pretty much the same as what I've heard all these while being in St Gabriel's for ten years and being in a Christian child care centre for about four or five.

A short summary would be "better believe in Jesus or else you're a God da(e)mned(con) sinner" with the whole tone being Helium-light..


He brought up good points about Life and Death
Good Reasons for Living               Bad Reasons for Living
Live cos there are others who      Live cos you're afraid
need you.                                       of Death

Good Reasons to Die                     Bad Reasons to Die
insert: to be with Him                    To Escape from something(reality)

The only interesting thing was the way he tried to communicate to us about his Faith and the way he was behaving.

He had us unconsciously visualizing ourselves; our family; our friends going through all the things that Jesus went through( e.g. stripped, naked and nailed) through his words.

Ahh... the Power of Suggestion and Visualization. It affects so. so many people.
This kind of give me confidence that our Intelligent Visual Analysis (I.V.A) can be a phenomenal success if we pull it off right!

His behaviour was something to note of too. He was hushing us when we got too loud and he radar-ed the area with light-sensitive cones located at two distinct points on his face, as if he was afraid of getting beaten up by religion-crazy-somebodies.

Indeed, it is a sensitive issue. So if its that dangerous a thing to discuss in public, so why talk to me and Calvin about it in the first place?

If he wasn't lucky, it might have been me who detaches his teeth.

Those who claims that others are self-righteous are usually the self-righteous ones.

So thats it..... my physics gone with 58.01 minutes of divine chimness.

But it seems that his God does exists tonight. I realised that i needed to save my recordings first before exiting the screen only after i decided to read my messages and Calvin's camera with weak batteries was tucked tightly into his zipped bag.

Edit: He was a nice person to talk to so no offense taken and i hope none dealt.

11.59pm
28th June 2007

I'm so, so lost....
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Yippie!!!!

Exams are over(almost) in a mere span of 48 hours! This is part of the enjoyable JC life i guess! It all depends on your luck on how your examination time-tables gets filled out.

So now i've got another 48 hours of rest before the last paper starts which happens to be a H1 Physics which also happens to be my least studied one. Although its not like i have studied a lot for the others.

H1 Physics is like.... SLOW
I've not even touched its first tutorial since the start of JAE.
 Oops.

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The path shakes
The path splits
Signs were boarded up
Boards were signed out
Muddy
Bloody
Lonely

Maybe i'm just looking for something special. Something REALLY special that i'll treasure with my life( other than family, friends etc which i already am treasuring).

Its missing, that something....

Its gone, cos i think i found it once....

Stolen?
Robbed?
Went away on its own two human feet..
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Isn't it just cute?  >_<
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P.S.

!!!!!!Favourite Quote of the Day!!!!!!

"""VANESSA'S A HISTORIAN.

Why? Because she made up the whole entire essay part on the end of Cold War. She created her own dates, and her own reason on why Glasnost and Perestroika were created. Best of all, she's HISTORY."""

Quoted from Vanessa, wednesday  27 June 2007

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2.22pm
27th June 2007

Just when i had left secondary school; just when i left saint gabriels; just when i thought i would never be tagged again....

THIS HAPPENS!

i was really, REALLY touched when I saw this!!

When i decided not to go for camp ASPIRE, i had already decided to stop being the class "leader". Through my absence from the camp, i truly believe that i had learnt more about being a leader than if i were present at camp.

One must not have a "stigmatic" approach towards your team or class.

I didn't like the class, i hated them for doing all the wrong things at the wrong time to the wrong parties. As a "Class Leader", wouldn't i have to take responsibility for their actions? Mustn't I be the role-model for them to follow?
Qn:Were they worth my effort?
Ans: No.

So i gave it up. I gave it all up.

To my surprise, i actually felt more integrated into the class than before. I was able to crap with them, break the rules, bo chap.
I brought myself down to their level!

If you've read about my take on CCC, you'll find that i was bitching about the Seniors of the CCC were not speaking at the junior's level.

I admit.

I'm not a good leader. Never said that i was.
But now i feel like i can do better.

Thats why i was really comforted deep down when i saw that.

Its a reminder to me of what being a leader is about.
Its about not giving your men up.
 Its a second chance..... to do something that i couldn't do before....
Its about you guys......

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P.S. The econs paper wasn't easy. The chi paper wasn't easy.
The Chem and Math paper tmr...... will not be easy... better get down to last minute work...
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10.26
25th June 2007

Hey my blog is so not emo LOR!

Why all say so?

Even though its emo-ish, the main concept of it is not to let all my troubles be known to people.

Its about self-discovery.

See ah....

When we "emo", we convert our raw emotions into words and while we're doing this, we think through a whole array of feelings and words which may be linked to them. Through this way, we may discover more feelings that had lain hidden before.

Something like that i guess.

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Exams starting soon. All the best to every one who's taking them!

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Heheh my parents will be so convinced about my decision to transfer to poly when they finally see my results this time round.

HEH.......................... HEH...................... HEH..................

4.52pm
24th June 2007

I hate holidays.

It ruins the momentum of everything.

Studies

Work

Even play.

Notice that i haven't been updating these few days? Its not because i'm so bindingly busy. Its simply because i got lazy.

Haiii

Worst of all, i have all these ideas that i want to realise but..... there's just no more momentum for me to move my limbs; to work my brains; to get my ass offa the bed.

Its disgusting.

8.46PM
20 June 2007

See that? Thats me, Christine and Fiona! Can you spot us?

Went out today to the NLB at Jurong East to study with them. Was cold throughout the day. VERY. Guess it was raining for the whole day. HEAVILY.

See Christine smirkin' at'cha!? Yeah...

Cos u dont know what u've missed out! muhahahhaa!

Well i dont really have the mood to write today... guess i'm too tired out by all the fun that we had today. heheh

Blehx!

10.49pm
16th June 2007

Talked with Christine today. For about an hour or so? Didn't keep my time. Her personality was, surprisingly, very similar to mine in that we keep quiet over things, we tolerate many. We have reservations about friendships and we won't hesitate to break ties once the lines are crossed (though this really happens once in a green moon).

I guess the Moon gets green once in the blue moon. What is it envious of anyways??

And surprisingly, we're both kinda free.

Booked her for this saturday afternoon. Study at some library near her house (seriously). But just the two of us?

Wanted to get Gloria out. Oops think cannot.

Hoped to get Fiona out. Oops needed at some event.

Tried to get Jasmine out. Oops prefer studying at home.

and so i began to question myself......
                Do i really have to much free time on my hands?
                Am i really so free with nothing important to do?
                                                 Or
                               Am i just trying too hard?
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                                       Identity Crisis
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Where do I stand in their hearts?Where's my place?Do i even HAVE a place(in the first place)?What am I worth to them?What are they worth to me?
Would my leaving even bother them?
Worth
Place
Status
Who am I?
Probably no one worth your mention....
What am I?
Oh? So you care?
Whats my name?
You'll forget it soon enough....
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                                       Identity Crisis
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MSNed Gerald a while ago. The problems he faced were, surprisingly, similar to mine. Friends are turning acquaintance but no acquaintance turning friends.
What is our importance?

He mentioned that maybe we should just disappear for awhile and maybe they'll figure that we're too good to let go; that we're something to be missed.

Thats when i came to realise that this was also what i felt initially when I decided to switch to Poly. I wanted those-who-neglect to know that I ain't gonna stay around forever; that they ain't getting away with what they did; that I'll be hurt no more.


复仇
復讐                       <== these are translations from dictionary.com
보복
REVENGE!!!!

Muhahahhahahahhahahah!!
Blahahhahahahhahah *ackackack*aaa!!!

*regains composure*

Childish as it is.

Minor issue here.

you feel me?

12.04AM
15th June 2007

Worked away the whole of this afternoon doing up my take on CCC. Would've been much faster if i hadn't accidentally deleted three quaters of it and having to retype it out from memory.

Luckily all these are words from the heart so it basically resembles the original.


                      CCC does not stand for Chit-Chat-Club.
                                     This i truly believe

By the way... Chit Chat Club still owes me nine damned bucks.
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Me bro Melissa from 1A07_PAE_O7' sent this to most of 1A07. It really cracked me up! Thx bro.

Before and after Marriage
> >
> >Before marriage:
> >
> >He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
> >
> >She: Do you want me to leave?
> >
> >He: NO! Don't even think about it.
> >
> >She: Do you love me?
> >
> >He: Of course!
> >
> >She: Have you ever cheated on me?
> >
> >He: NO! Why you even asking?
> >
> >She: Will you kiss me?
> >
> >He: Yes!
> >
> >She: Will you hit me?
> >
> >He: No way! I'm not such kind of person!
> >
> >She: Can I trust you?
> >
> >He: Yes.
> >
> >
> >
> >Now after the marriage you can read it from below to top.


6.14pm
13th June 2007

i must admit, I've been much happier these few days than the whole of 3 weeks past.

The SG24's outing two days ago..... it just rox!
The people
The place
The conversations
The Braces

The 1S18's outing today(yups)..... it rox-ed too!
The people
The places
The conversations
The Bargaining
The long rounds through Sim Lim Square

Think Sheena's overseas trip had something to do with it.
Not because she's gone
but because i dont get to emo.
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The 1S18's trip out was fun! Even though 5 out of 18 turned up  (the same five).
Let me draw u a concept map
SRJC(study)
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 l          Home
 l          ^^
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V          l
Sim Lim Square(Camera + 1 gig M2 Memory Card)
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II must admit again, I've been much happier these few days than the whole of 3 weeks past.

Me not going for Camp Aspire meant that i effectively gave up my position as a "Class Leader". That was what they impressed on us. That was what i thought.

Which meant to say that i had chosen to give it up.

Know what? I felt relieved actually. Felt that a huge burden was lifted offa me shoulders.

I could crap with the class.
I'm not the one responsible for their actions( which could prove fatal some day)
I actually felt , for the first time, that i was part of the class.
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8.46pm
12th June 2007