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Here i am at Chuan Hoe trying to do up my PW.

PW is so weird. I'm doing seemingly meaningless  things which i have no inkling of how.

So how?

Just do lor

Blog about it too
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Talking to yourself may seem weird to others, but it has much more value than what others might think. It gives yourself more insight. Insight on what?

On YOU.

On oneself.

We're simply vocalising what we think inside.

Although if you think weird, you will look weirder.

If you think good, will you look gooder?

nah

So if you are introspecting while emo-ing, it'll be a very sad sight. Well almost. You'll look like me! XD

Good for you.

11.55am
29th July 2007

Today's  school was good. Only weird thing was the extra PW periods that the school provided for us. Most of the classes were off slacking. Mine was playing CS on my laptop and Neopets on another. Some classes were off cam-whoring or talk-cocking.

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I realise that my first three months in SRJC was my time of gold. The friends, the brothers and the sisters.

What happened now is that all of that gold is melted and gone.

It was good. Good gold.

Its all melted.

Now, i have no confidence in rebuilding all these from scratch again ever since i transfered from arts to science.

I'm afraid.
I don't want to loose that lovely feeling.

To love and to be loved.

Thats why im scraping madly away at whats left of the Good, Gone Gold.

But its all over now
I should move on....

Should....
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How can CCC be so fun when i hate it so much?

This shows that i've picked the right CCA but encountered the wrong circumstances

haii
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I love all of you

9.16pm
27th July 2007

I'm too tired to blog. But then again, here I am blogging. Ironic.

Blooming late sux real bad.

Just think of yourself being all childish in a mature environment.
People don't give you the respect.
People won't remember you.
People forget you.
Even though you were them for them  through hard times.
Even though you were nice.
You lack the experience to do what you want.
You don't know what needs to be done.

You fail.

Guess "nice" isn't the IN thing any longer.
You fork out more concern than needed, you become a freakish pervert to them.
You try to be concerned with the amount you think is right and they say you're evil-ish-ly apathetic.

You look at people around you.
They are well-accomplished(relatively; comparatively)
You look again.
They're no better than you.
Or rather
You're as good as them.
So why?
Why can they do what you can't?
Why do they have the attention that you so desperately need?
Why can't you be like them?
Why can't your true self compare?

How can they be so strong?
How can they be so liked?
How can they be so important to others!?

What aren't you doing?
What can you do?


YOU'RE SIMPLY CLUELESS!!!

And then you're hurt..... but no one notices.

So you freeze inside forevermore....
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I say fuck it all.

8.53pm
25th July 2007

Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!

1: He take obsessive pride in his languages even though he may not be that good at it
2: His hair always grows back to the original style even after changing it.
3: He loves "bracey" smiles
4: He is the outside. She is the inside.
5: He is still straight.
6: He photographs those who do not like to be photographed.
7: He wants to cook nice nice things.... but can't even fry
8: He sacrifices himself for others even if it isn't reciprocated. ( he most often will)
9: He tries too hard to keep things the same
10: He thinks too much, acts too little

The following people must do the quiz:
Sheena
Shirlene
Calvin
Vanessa
Christine
Wan Chin

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A more elaborate version of this would be put up soon in the ABOUT ME section.

8.36pm
24th July 2007

If a girl were to appear in my dreams, would that make her my dream girl?

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Ahhhhh i miss SG24!

Thats what i realised after i woke up from that dream.
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Guess who??

10.13pm
23 July 2007

This is a creative and innovative idea that the Economics unit of SRJC have come up with. It is basically a mirror image of Project Work except for the absence of the all-hated; 3000 word; hard to collate; complicated Written Report.

Teamwork
Time Management
Cooperation
Score will be taken into account of the Promos

When i heard about this i was utterly delighted! I haven't had the chance like this for a very long time. As a Class Representative of 1A07_PAE, i didn't really have the chance to do anything except for going up stage and receiving the prize that Melvin and Joanna had won for us in the Chinese New Year Celebrations Ang Pao design competition.

Failed to become the 1st In-Charge of the Valentine's Day project of the Student Council Interns Student Liason Committee.

Second Orientation- I was an OGL but i didn't do much. People were appealing out of SRJC and they had to queue up in the SAC to gain permission to leave school before being able to approach other schools for interviews and appeals. So i ended up stuck at the SAC for most of the whole 3 days rather than spending time with my OG.

But now, i take it as my own personal pet project and a benchmark which i will use to evaluate my abilities. If I, as the Leader of this project and class, can motivate the class and win this project.... It'll be my win. muahhahahaa!

Today's Listening Comprehension was the funniest ever.

Not because the passage was humourous but because out of the four passages given, I've heard two of them before.

One of it was a carpenter, who had built a shabby house as a last favour for his boss before retiring, only to find out that the house was meant for him right at the start.

The other was about a University student who wasn't that well off and pretended to eat two bowls of beef noodles, so that his father wouldn't be worried, but in fact only ordered  one beef bowl and another vegetarian. The store owner gave the father and son some more beef for free as she saw the whole seen and was deeply touched by it.

Such a breeze....
Not

At least the other two questions were tricky enough to turn it into fair game.

11.44pm
17 July 2007

"""
dj:I'm chewin' chewing gum. Chew leh? Chew like chewing gum?

van:i dont like chewin' chewing gum. chew mean, chew like chewin' chewing gum?

dj:chew should chew some chewing gum so that chur gums will be chew'in like they should chew!

van:if chur gums chew chewing gum like they should be chewin' gum, then maybe chew should get some chewing gum for me to chew so that i can like chewin' on chewing gum

dj:chew should get chur own chewin gums to chew so that next time chew can come and chew with me chewing gums!

van:but i dont know where to buy chewing gum, dont chew know that singapore doesnt allow chew to chew chewing gum even though we like to chew on chewing gum?

dj:chew can also bring in chewing gums from chewland without chur country knowing and we shall chew chewing gums with local chew'ren who loves chewin' chewing gums!

van:but now me and chew has got school, so we cant go to chewland and get chewing gum to chew on!

dj: we can always be like the ponners who pon classes like expert ponners to get chewing gums from chewland and chew like we never chewed before!

van:but we cant be like the ponners who pon classes just to get chewing gums from chewland to chew like we never chewed before just because we like to chew on chewing gum! we're guai kias and chew wont want to miss lessons just because chew want to get gum from chewland to chew on!

dj:but don't chew know the heavenly chewiness that chewing gums give when chew are chewin' the chewing gums? chew just can't forget the chewiness once chew chew on that chewing gum bought from chewland!
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A little bit of lameness that came out of me and ness wayyyyy back.
A little bit funny
A little bit lame
A *ginormous bunch of memories.

*Ginormous is the new word added into a new edition dictionary( i forgot which). Gigantic+ Enormous= Ginormous
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10.32pm
16th July 2007

I laughed my heart out. But my heart feels too constricted for me to laugh heartily......... so it continues to stay deep under...... until the day .... that day.... when you..... when he.... when she... when I am able to open myself up once more.......................................................................

Without fear of being hurt
Without fear of losing
Without fear of you

10.30pm 
10th July 2007

me: I'm starting to like the class. Shit!
vanessa: hey, what's wrong with liking your class! it should be a good thing isnt it ; D
me: Not good cos i cant bear to part
vanessa:haha, just let nature takes it course. think of the poly thing after your promos! you'll have LOTS of time to think after that.


Aiyo it'll be good if its that simple lah. Nature doesn't apply in the world of Humans, cos we already differentiated ourselves from every ecosystem in the world.

But yeah.

I'm already too lazy to persuade everyone around me that the choice i make would be accurate. But the fact is, no one know whether it'd be a correct decision to make. Thats why its so hard.

lolx

So up till the promos, i swear i'll make my remaining time in SRJC worthwhile!
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Today was the A lvl Chinese Oral Examinations!

I didn't expect the it to be this easy. The passage only had one word foreign to me and the conversation was about posting pics online.

Some of my friends were asked whether they would post pics of them and their girlfriends online. LOL

Lucky i didn't get that if not i wouldn't have anything to say
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The class wanted to be lazy after the orals (cos some of us were totally not prepared for PE) and pon GP and PE even though its obvious which one would be a safer choice for us to take. The odds were against ponning.

So i was thinking to myself...... Should I, as the class rep, allow such a thing to happen? Should I assist them or should i leave them be? Or am I the Mastermind?

Result:  we told the truth about not being prepared and it turned out fine. hahah I didn't go home quietly hor ness! I so guai....

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Im soooooooo pissed!

I TOTALLY gave up my O lvl Physics and got back a B3!!!!!!
I TOTALLY gave up my Mid-Year H1 Physics and got back a B again!

Think its the result of the FiloMath training I've had these few years. The theories and methods  seem to be be derived from Mathematics and Physics.

Oh my god lah

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Why do i have to face such dillemas everyday???

10.11pm
9th July 2007