bah this is sickening... i've just wasted two hours of my precious time. Irritating. dont even feel like paragraphing nor doing the caps nor inserting punctuations. hell i might just forget about the spacing even..
*concuss*
5.56PM
29th september 2007
My top most hated thing..... is for someone to ask me to cut my hair!
Why? when my hair's so nerd already?
Not good enough for ya'?!
Not nerd enough for ya'?!
F***!!!
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*UCK!!!
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There goes all my steam. Back to studies!
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Okay maybe not
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What to do when you've lost your respect for someone?
You know he doesn't deserve it; you know he's just being him, yet whatever he does just irritates the very core of you.
Its not like he's a bad person. Just too blur.
Its not like he's irresponsible. Just not doing the right things at the right time.
Its not like he's childish. Just too caught up with the trivial.
What to do?
3.30PM
26th September 2007
I love their smiles...
Its so great to see LX smile again. Not those that were forced out last week but rather, a real laugh from her heart.
I love their smiles...
I dont want to see them in pain
I dont want to see them hurt
I dont want to see them cry
I dont want to see their tears
I dont want to see it ever again...
For those who are important to me I'll never forget.
To those who are important to me I'll lend my hand.
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what kind of super power you want if you could have it?
Laser eyes so u can burn everyone in your sight?
X-Ray vision so that u can see skeletons walking around?
Flying to avoid traffic jams?
Teleporting so that you'll never be late for anything ever again??
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what kind of super power i want if i could have it?
I want the power to protect those who are important to me.
A shield to block harm?
A sword to cut down whoever brings evil?
A gift to make them smile whenever they're down.
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what kind of super power you want if you could have it?
To this question I'd like to tag:
Vanessa
Wan Chin
Ying Ling
Christine
Calvin
Sheena
Li Jie
I'd like to know :)
6.30PM
25th September 2007
:::Ka Mate:::
Ka mate, ka mate! ka ora! ka ora! Ka mate! ka mate! ka ora! ka ora!
Tēnei te tangata pūhuruhuru
Nāna nei i tiki mai whakawhiti te rā
Ā, upane! ka upane!
Ā, upane, ka upane, whiti te ra!
12.00PM
23rd September 2007
How powerless.
How vulnerable.
The way things turn out. I have no idea what to do anymore. My words aren't getting through, they're ears aren't working, no improvement at all.
The class ecosystem is waining.... Those who used to be dependable now aren't. Those who respected now despises. Those who tolerated now breaks. Those who annoy now still annoys.
I, as a class leader have failed. Failed to resolve things; failed to speak up. At the leadership seminar i learnt that i am the "delegative" type of leader. I just let the guys do what they want. I let them flower on their own. But look at what happened? I let things get out of hand and I, too, am caught in the midst of all the hate, anger, despise, gossip... All the shit.
What to do?
I can do nothing more.......
Its so worrying. The whole class. I worry about the way they are heading. I worry so, so much....
I can do nothing more......
So i must use my very last resort. Those of you who may know me will get a chance to see a whole new me right here right now.
Let us pray, to which ever faith you believe in, to which ever god you put your trust in. This is... after all... a prayer.
Let us pray that::
Everyone can get along fine
Those who are struggling academically may get their flying colours
He who is so blur may be more alert in the future
She who is so stressed and tense may get relief and smile again
She who seem to be in such pain, that it hurts just seeing, get well.
She whose barriers were broken now begin setting it up again.
She who lost her footing pick up her steps again
Those around her will give her a second chance, as i have.
Faith is what i need, believing is what i lack....
There is no choice...
6.50PM
21st September 2007
There comes a time when all bloggers need to apologise for something they said or posted.
In just a few short months, now's my time.
To Wei Squared::
I am sorry for having said what i said and posted what i posted. Please understand that a lungman lunglanguage(废人废话) person like me jokes ,sometimes, too much for my own good. Sometimes they turn out funny but there are times when its just not funny at all.
A blogger like me is serious and joke-y at the same time so you must discern which one is which at when time is when. What i said isn't the final judgement of you.
Once again i apologise for my words. This is ,after all, how friends get the know each other better right? :)
6.50PM
21st September 2007
What are "good" friends in hard times? They won't give a shit about what happens to you. They don't care. Its always good when times are good, when the world is at peace but with the table's turned, true colours are unveiled, both dark and bright....
You think they'll be there to support you yet they'll be the ones who abandon you first. You think you can continue on with them, yes, but things have changed, status quo no longer.
Those whom you thought were unreliable now are able to serve more use to you than ever, because in them lies their explicit concern and love for you. Those whom you weren't close before now creates new bonds with you, even if you snap at them.
When you snapped, those who go "crazy are you!" aren't worth clinging on to. When you snapped, those who went "she alright anot?" are the ones you should have noticed. When you snapped, those who remained by your side are the true ones whom you should put your trust in from now on.
You are so mysterious, so secretive. Not telling anyone anything. Not even your closest friend? If you need to explain your situation before those people understand that you are having problems, then those are not the ones you should be hanging out with. Those who know that something is wrong at first sight may be the ones least you expect.
Control is something you should learn. I know its hard when you're sick and your mind is tensed up all the time. But the situation ain't in your favour no more. You are scaring some people and appalling some others. Control it! You can do it!
Thats why........ wake up your idea.
Thats why........ smile on.
Hope you come across this....
19th September 2007
8.22PM
List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. Lots of PSP games (cos im getting one real soon)
2.a cat. but it craps all over the place :(
3.lunch with close friends at a nice restaurant(i dun mind treating)
4.Talk cock sing song session with close friends
5.enlightenment
1. The person who tag you is?
Wan Chin
2. Your relationship with her is?
My secretary who doesn't write and member of the Permanent Class Outing Committee.(PCOC)
3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-blur
-cute
-funny (that weird laughter)
-pink
-Cam-Girl
4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
Out of the class of eighteen, she's the one who never fail to reply me XD
5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkks DELETE IT!!!
6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
Take out my prosumer and photo her until she leaves me.
7. If she becomes your lover, things she would have to improve on will be?
Stop being scared of cam.
8. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Life-long introspection.
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Gershwin? hehe no lah wun enemy de promise :)
10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
Get her a new bag.
11. Your overall impression of her is?
Cam-whore other people but not herself.
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List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. Lots of PSP games (cos im getting one real soon)
2.a cat. but it craps all over the place :(
3.lunch with close friends at a nice restaurant(i dun mind treating)
4.Talk cock sing song session with close friends
5.enlightenment
1. The person who tag you is?
Shirlene
2. Your relationship with her is?
The person whom i wave to from the silhouettes...
3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-blur
-whiny
-true friend
-pink
-blur
4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
copied chemistry notes for me when i hurt my writing hand (Think OGL camp) even though it was still obviously functioning :)
5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
Everything is.
6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
Injure both hands.
7. If she becomes your lover, things she would have to improve on will be?
Copy all my notes.
8. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Life-long introspection.
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
At the way things are, it will never come to that.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
congratulate her.
11. Your overall impression of her is?
Great to hang around with, Best to be with.
12. How you think people around you would feel about you?
Dislike my moronic laughter to self. Me=Funny/Not Funny but nevertheless a crazee idiot.
13. The character i love most about myself is?
My moronic laughter to self. No lah. Humour.
14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Blur, childish(in a deeper sense), insensitive, constantly renews bonds with others but unable to create a unique one.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Braces Girl
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Thanks guys! In the most un-ironic, unhypocritical, un-underlying-messages kind of thanks!
17. For people whom i've hurt:
So sorry! I swear i didn't mean it. hehehx
18. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel bout you:
In no Order of Merit:::
1.Vanessa
2.Calvin
3.Christine
4.Ying Ling
5.Li Jie
6.Sheena
7.Wan Chin
8.Shirlene
9.Clarence (i dunno ur blog)
10.Shuai Xun
please note, if you intend to do this quiz, i advice you to fill in the ten names before you proceed with your reading! Its no fun otherwise.]
1. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
potentially someone whom i do not know of?
2. Is no.9 a male or female?
Male. yup
3. If no. 7 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
7 too guai. 10 too pai :p
4. How bout no. 8 and 5?
Nope not gonna happen. But 8 n 5 still rox! muahahha!
5. What is no.2 studying about?
MCEP Super cool stuff.
6. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
right now
7. What kind of music band does no.8 likes?
Very chim english types?
8. Does no. 1 has any siblings?
one elder brother, one elder sister.
9. Will you woo no.3?
I'm not exactly straight :)
10. How bout no.7?
I have gay notations :)
11. Is no.4 single?
The genie has her lamp doesn't she? hehehh dun0
12. What is the surname of no.5?
Goh....... as in Chok Tong kind of Goh
13. What is the nickname of no.10?
Shuai Xing
14. What is the hobby of no.4?
This is tougher than O levels. Drinking mango-lia's mango milk?
15. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
Most likely not?
16. Where is no.2 studying at?
The best place on earth, sRJC
17. Talk something casually bout no.1?
What?.......Doesn'tt make sense....
18. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
Unfortunately for her no. Well... not TRIED per se....
19. Where does no. 9 lives?
Potong Pasir
20. What color does no.4 likes?
Red n Pinkish red
21. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Not
22. Does no.7 like no. 2?
YES
23. How did you get to know no. 2?
sRJC
24. Does no.1 has any pets?
Do the neo-s count?
25. Is no.7 the most sexiest person in the world?
In whose logic?
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I don't really have the urge to see you. I don't really want to see you. I don't really care if I don't.
Yet it feels really weird not seeing you today.
Kinda queasy, Kinda uneasy.
Kinda lonely.
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TSK
TCH
BLEAEAEAEHX
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erm
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Can't gather my thoughts....
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9.36PM
14th September 2007
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