No offense to Jing Ling :p
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What do you do when some one who absolutely irritates the shit out of you is always in sight? What do you do when you face a group of people who harass you? What do you do when you absolutely want them to die right there right then?
You can't tell them to buzz off cos it ain't nice.
You can't tell them to fuck off cos you'll kena whack.
All you can do is turn around, walk away and ignore.
This is what parents always teach us. Ignore them. Your pride won't allow it but you've got no choice!
Usually what i would do is to start fantasizing about how I would go about killing and torturing those people with my anime-ish powers(my sick little mind). So shiok.
That aside, this is something which i've been troubled with since like ever. I'm a person who avoids conflicts, no matter what happens i'll give in cos i want no trouble. I want my slate to be clean. I want to befriend all. Rather than having enemy-like acquaintances I'd rather not have them altogether.
What about you? What would you do? I know some people will show attitude or talk behind the evil-doer's backs but we need a more concrete way of solving things practically.
May I suggest anger, a knife and an obsessive determination of getting what you want(a killing fun time) no matter the consequence??
Discuss.
Disclaimer: I am a totally sane person and i am emotionally stable(agreed readers?) and very unlikely to do such illogical things to ruin my bleak future which i forsee.
9.30PM
12th September 2007
November 10
The day I shine so bright you people have gotta wear shades for the rest of the day!!!
November 10
The day someone else shone so brightly and i needa wear shades for the rest of the day.
Which one will it be?
8.53PM
10th September 2007
Today.... is Sunday. That i'm certain.
I had another dream... well two actually.
Yesterday i just went to the dentist again to get my green braces(weeeee) and her ran out of the rubber elastics that wasn't so strong. So i had to wear the strong ones to sleep.
Then it came. I wore it and my front teeth just sank to the back. I could pull it back up again only to have it be pulled back into my inner-jaw with the tip touching. Felt like Jelly. Felt gross. Then the teeth suddenly got larger, as if drawn out from the gums.
Hideous..........
The other one was.... hmmm.... i can't remember. Maybe i didn't WANT to remember so i chose to forget.
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Damn i can't handle stress.
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We learn to be good only to prevent us from being bad.
We be bad and we go all the way...
8.37PM
2007
It feels weird...
The holidays really messed me up.
I had a dream today. It was by far the worst one i've ever had. Not for its horror or gore or what not. Its the disorientation i felt.
Get ready guys, for the first time ever, i am going to describe what my dream had looked like!!!!
I think it was the parade square of St. Gabriel's Secondary, with grey bricks tiling the ground and a white background. People were lining up and seating themselves down as they normally would during assembly.
Then Petrina(AKA Pet Squared) came out of nowhere and asked me whether i was going for the leadership class. So i thought to myself " there's such an event? Why aren't I aware of it?"
*Author's note: this is obviously my memory of Monday's Leadership Seminar*.
My mind had then fired like a machine gun over the past whole week. Why couldn't I remember what happened the past week? What day did I do what? Today is Saturday or Sunday?
I think its Sunday. But i don't recall going for this week's session of ShuaiXun's class leh... But if it is Sunday and I'm sleeping already, why don't i have any memory of my Sunday's class??
So i wake up, still unsure even till now at 9.53PM, whether or not today is a Sunday or a Saturday or a Friday.
It is so unreal.....
Stress getting to me?
Or maybe I'm just doing enough work to make it feel like a Sunday (cos i only do last-minute work on Sundays)
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Should I get a PSP now or wait for the Slim one?
Getting impatient......
9.56PM
9th September 2007
Ahhhhh didn't touch any books today!!!
I .....AM..... SO ....SCREWED!!!!
Ajhdfkwhefuhufh ks hweuhg regh
Know why i always insist on going out to study? Cos every time i get stuck on a question, i get so stressed that I go berserk and start screaming at the walls.
Well..... go ahead and imagine.
Just like today's physics online quiz. Couldn't even do the first question that randomised its way into the system. Berserk couldn't even cover the depth of it. Hmmm how to say leh...?
How about....
Freak Outs
Spot-On!!
weeeeee I'm turning into a nut. A peanut. $500 000 worth of it.
See what i mean? *points above*
(((@_@)))
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"Build him a fire and he will stay warm for a day.
Light him on fire and he'll stay warm forever."
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8.19PM
6th September 2007
Waiting is such a horrible thing...
Where is my PSP................................
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Today's Math lecture test was kind of weird. Think I can score full marks. But then again, whenever I feel this way I usually fail terribly. Did I get tricked or overconfident?
Well.... confidence in math is not something that i really have, so i must've gotten tricked.
Dang it....
Full marks here i come!
9.06PM
4th September 2007
Is it really that hard?
Recently its been really confusing, but in comparison to my past, its considered very tranquil already.
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SX, PSP!?
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Sianz....
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Wanted to study, but everything's just not working out...
9.23PM
3rd September 2007
I met You in a dream that seemed so near.
I saw You in a dream that seemed so far.
A smile similar
A face familiar
An illusion idealised.
My miss....
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Feels like shit.
Even though I spent a whole week's worth of messages just today, it feels absolutely rotten. Usually it would have been delightful. But it just feels wrong. Some where along the line, something went wrong. Are instincts telling me to act when my logic commands that nothing is wrong?
I believe in my instincts for it has failed me before. I trust my logic for nothing can go wrong with logic.
How? What should i do next?
Just like LJ, i'm the same. From one to another and then to the next. A never ending cycle of pain and souring hearts. Maybe one day my heart will be shriveled to the point where it no longer pumps feelings.
Wrong
So So Wrong.
10.08PM
2nd September 2007
I broke down today! Totally gave up my defenses. THE ENEMY BROKE THROUGH!!
Guess what? I decided that the PSP will be mine! MINE!! muhahahahahahhaa!!!
ShuaiXun have been TORTURING me with the NARUTOs and the BLEACHs and today was the last straw. GUNDAM SEED DESTINY eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkksss!!
I'm so totally freaking out right now.
The hole in the pocket is absolutely worth it
So much more worth it than spending time with people when you know you're not going to get back what you deserve(rightfully??).
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I know its a hard time nowsadays, with the Promotional Examinations coming up coupled with Project Work, the stress levels are so much higher.
With that said, one must realise that not everyone are as able as some in coping academically. So when I say "Come out study lehz", it really means "I'm so totally screwed, come save my sorry ass".
You get what I mean.
Be reminded that there are people around you who needs your help. Regardless of how good you are or how much wiser your time will be spent studying at home, there are others who need your help and I believe that when you are in need, these friends will absolutely be there for you.
That's why, be sensible enough not to let your friends be so direct as to say "come save my sorry pathetic ass from miserably misery" before you realise how it has always been you, you and you.
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It was fate that brought us together
It is misfortune that is having us separated
It is destiny which crossed our paths
It is our duty not to let go
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10.46PM
1st September 2007
Been so moooooooooooooooooody these days.
Sianz.....
4.54PM
1st September 2007
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