-+Sentiments+-*

Cheers to our one-week anniversary of acquaintance!

May it have lasted longer than it should!

May it last longer than it has!

May it be more than affinity!

May it be more than fate!

May it last!

MAY IT BE LAST!

HIP HIP HURRAY!!

CHEERS!!!!

YAAAM SEEEENG!!!

8.54pm
10th December 2007

Here's the math that i learnt in HK. Its abit complicated but I'll show you.

First up, A poet com's up with a sentimental phrase that goes like ===


"Time is never on our side. The affinity to meet is an opportunity to treasure."
               -Wong Ding jie

Add it together with an even better poet, you'll get this
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"So they came, they left.
We "hea"ed, we laughed.
We slept (yes, right in class), we paid attention.
We ate, we wasted.
We talked and talked and talked.
I wish we had chatted more.
same age, same race, same grade,
different culture, different origins, different experiences,
boundless areas to talk about.
Again, time is never on our side."
                                                 -Lisa Cheng
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Then comes the critic, claiming that it doesn't work that way! Oh no what ever are we gonna do? No worries people! Here comes Michelle to the rescue!


"Let P(n) be the proposition that
"In n, Time is not on our side"

Assume P(n) is true for n= this second
i.e. Time is not on our side this second

When n=the next second
Time is also not on our side.

so P(this second+1) is also true.

so by mathematical induction, P(n) is true for all positive integers n.

time is never on our side ;)"
                                   -Michelle Fong

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And there we have it dear readers!

However, upon seeing that all the other poets wrote so much, he writes a longer poem again, while still believing that the shorter phrase have more impact.

The new one goes something like

""""
"So we went.
 Apologies for my spartan self,
 For I am not rich in fashion wealth.
 Apologies to my new found friends,
 For the time to go is around the bend.
 And so, We Left. 
 Hearts melt and Tears welled.
 Regret, Regret, Regret,
 That Time is Never with Us.
 There were none for us to take it all in.
 The Time to take in their characters,
 Personalities and their faces that is.

 i too wished that we'd have more time to chat.
 I too wish that it could have lasted.
 But that, Time will never grant.

 From Chemistry to Ping Pong Balls,
 From Lunch to Waste,
 From English to Boredom,
 From Mathematics to Time,
 These are the things which i will never forget.

 From Gloria to Heidi,
 From Janice to Emmy,
 From Karen to Lisa,
 These are the people whom i'll treasure forever.

 How cruel it is, that time brought us together only to force us apart.
 How cruel it is, that it ended.
 How fortunate it is, that this is only the dawn of a new beginning.""""""

10.00pm
 7th December 2007

Tom actually had a smiley face on when this happened (SX and I can testify)

And there goes Tom, reborn as a phoenix would, into the ashes....
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Plus a Special as proof of my contributions to KonoAi project by JingLing and her team,

10.23PM  
14th October 2007

I found her.

She is a close copy of my personality and I, too, am a close copy of her's. The things i do are what the things she will too. The things i don't are the things she won't. She has my good points and i have her's.  We share the same flaws through and through(k lah i still dun0 much).

The will and ability to maintain a relationship, in the most basic of forms, when neither one of us are able to meet nor communicate effectively. Neither of us are willing to push forward in fear of losing something we hold dear. A xenophobic status quo....

As siblings, as friends and as more. Regardless of which, having her around again would be the second best period of time this year, with the first being my first time with her of course. Unfortunately, whether this is reciprocated i know not.
What should i do next?

Nothing carnal
Nothing philosophical
Just pure enjoyment of the moment.

EDIT: well from the short time that we've interacted, this is by far what i can tell best.
9.50PM
4th October 2007

What are "good" friends in hard times? They won't give a shit about what happens to you. They don't care. Its always good when times are good, when the world is at peace but with the table's turned, true colours are unveiled, both dark and bright....

You think they'll be there to support you yet they'll be the ones who abandon you first. You think you can continue on with them, yes, but things have changed, status quo no longer.

Those whom you thought were unreliable now are able to serve more use to you than ever, because in them lies their explicit concern and love for you. Those whom you weren't close before now creates new bonds with you, even if you snap at them.

When you snapped, those who go "crazy are you!" aren't worth clinging on to. When you snapped, those who went "she alright anot?" are the ones you should have noticed. When you snapped, those who remained by your side are the true ones whom you should put your trust in from now on.

You are so mysterious, so secretive. Not telling anyone anything. Not even your closest friend? If you need to explain your situation before those people understand that you are having problems, then those are not the ones you should be hanging out with. Those who know that something is wrong at first sight may be the ones least you expect.

Control is something you should learn. I know its hard when you're sick and your mind is tensed up all the time. But the situation ain't in your favour no more. You are scaring some people and appalling some others. Control it! You can do it!

Thats why........ wake up your idea.
Thats why........ smile on.

Hope you come across this....

19th September 2007
8.22PM

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. Lots of PSP games (cos im getting one real soon)
2.a cat. but it craps all over the place :(
3.lunch with close friends at a nice restaurant(i dun mind treating)
4.Talk cock sing song session with close friends
5.enlightenment

1. The person who tag you is?
Wan Chin

2. Your relationship with her is?
My secretary who doesn't write and member of the Permanent Class Outing Committee.(PCOC)

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-blur
-cute
-funny (that weird laughter)
-pink
-Cam-Girl

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
Out of the class of eighteen, she's the one who never fail to reply me XD

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkks DELETE IT!!!

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
Take out my prosumer and photo her until she leaves me.

7. If she becomes your lover, things she would have to improve on will be?
Stop being scared of cam.

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Life-long introspection.

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Gershwin? hehe no lah wun enemy de promise :)

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
Get her a new bag.

11. Your overall impression of her is?
Cam-whore other people but not herself.
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List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. Lots of PSP games (cos im getting one real soon)
2.a cat. but it craps all over the place :(
3.lunch with close friends at a nice restaurant(i dun mind treating)
4.Talk cock sing song session with close friends
5.enlightenment

1. The person who tag you is?
Shirlene

2. Your relationship with her is?
The person whom i wave to from the silhouettes...

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-blur
-whiny
-true friend
-pink
-blur

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
copied chemistry notes for me when i hurt my writing hand     (Think OGL camp) even though it was still obviously functioning  :)

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
Everything is.

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
Injure both hands.

7. If she becomes your lover, things she would have to improve on will be?
Copy all my notes.

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Life-long introspection.

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
At the way things are, it will never come to that.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
congratulate her.

11. Your overall impression of her is?
Great to hang around with, Best to be with.

12. How you think people around you would feel about you?
Dislike my moronic laughter to self. Me=Funny/Not Funny but nevertheless a crazee idiot.

13. The character i love most about myself is?
My moronic laughter to self. No lah. Humour.

14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Blur, childish(in a deeper sense), insensitive, constantly renews bonds with others but unable to create a unique one.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Braces Girl

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Thanks guys! In the most un-ironic, unhypocritical, un-underlying-messages kind of thanks!

17. For people whom i've hurt:
So sorry! I swear i didn't mean it. hehehx

18. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel bout you:
In no Order of Merit:::
1.Vanessa
2.Calvin
3.Christine
4.Ying Ling
5.Li Jie
6.Sheena
7.Wan Chin
8.Shirlene
9.Clarence (i dunno ur blog)
10.Shuai Xun

please note, if you intend to do this quiz, i advice you to fill in the ten names before you proceed with your reading! Its no fun otherwise.]

1. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
potentially someone whom i do not know of?

2. Is no.9 a male or female?
Male. yup

3. If no. 7 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
7 too guai. 10 too pai  :p

4. How bout no. 8 and 5?
Nope not gonna happen. But 8 n 5 still rox! muahahha!

5. What is no.2 studying about?
MCEP Super cool stuff.

6. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
right now

7. What kind of music band does no.8 likes?
Very chim english types?

8. Does no. 1 has any siblings?
one elder brother, one elder sister.

9. Will you woo no.3?
I'm not exactly straight :)

10. How bout no.7?
I have gay notations :)

11. Is no.4 single?
The genie has her lamp doesn't she? hehehh dun0

12. What is the surname of no.5?
Goh....... as in Chok Tong kind of Goh

13. What is the nickname of no.10?
Shuai Xing

14. What is the hobby of no.4?
This is tougher than O levels. Drinking mango-lia's mango milk?

15. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
Most likely not?

16. Where is no.2 studying at?
The best place on earth, sRJC

17. Talk something casually bout no.1?
What?.......Doesn'tt make sense....

18. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
Unfortunately for her no. Well... not TRIED per se....

19. Where does no. 9 lives?
Potong Pasir

20. What color does no.4 likes?
Red n Pinkish red

21. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Not

22. Does no.7 like no. 2?
YES

23. How did you get to know no. 2?
sRJC

24. Does no.1 has any pets?
Do the neo-s count?

25. Is no.7 the most sexiest person in the world?
In whose logic?

Hey i don't usually dedicate my blog posts to someone okay?
But lets break routine shall we? This is just for you and only you and I can truly relate to this.

=)

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I don't think its fair. I don't think its fair.
Things always seem to go right for the wrong people and wrong for the right people. Recently whenever things are looking up, a thought always strikes me.

Will it last?

Will these beautiful friendships eventually turn ugly or will they stay as perfect as ever?

Its not fair.

Why do we have to meet up only to break away?
Why go through all those wonderful memories only to have the very person we shared them with shatter it?
Why are there always obstacles keeping us apart and finally separating us all?

Barriers of entry? I think not.

Why must we have the affinity to meet, only to have fate pry us apart?
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As much as i refuse to admit it, i believe that there is only one truth in all of this. Good things don't last. Its something that we should have realised since childhood.

Things like this...... we know but we don't really understand. Its just like a person telling you to do homework. You know that it needs to be done but sometimes, you just don't see why.

But then again, how sure are we that this is the end of the road? Even if good things don't last long, how sure are we that this is the extent where it can stretch at maximum elasticity before snapping?

Hope.

As the Principal replied me in his mail, sometimes in life, we must learn to embody hope. Although i am not saying that you are hopeless... oops no is "have lost hope"(XD), things will turn for the better.

No matter how lonely it may seem, there will always be people around you who care for you. No matter how sianz it is, there are those willing to chiong with you to the very end(namely me).

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So not professionally articulated, my thoughts are flying all over the place but i hope you do get my point.
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So cheer up kay? The next time we go out make sure that you're truly laughing and smiling with your heart and not your brain (like I always say). And then we'll take a picture together.

A picture of two beautiful, happy persons.

10.49PM
14th August 2007

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OH MY GOSH
i got like this SUPER CUTE pink braces! is cute de lor kay?
It feels like the best decision i've mad since like EVER!!
Feels so ME luhhhh! Never felt so MYSELF b4!!
Its like suppperrr niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
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Finally got the pink braces. Really couldn't imagine myself with those pink metallic things before. It doesn't really look bad and its nice to see a change from that grey coloured metal.
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Wah siao lah! Got these pink braces damned the chio lah! Wah piang eh! I tell you this CONFIRM shock everyone sia!
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The three MEs.
Which one is real and which one is fake?
Number 1: The Cute girl act that I've grown up to be inside
Number 2: The Objective act that's ever cool-headed
Number 3: The Tough guy act which I'm revealing to others.

Which one do you think I am?
Right now I'm in the 2 and 3 mode and im not leading a happy life. It just feels fake.
Maybe Number 1 is the real me? Chances are it is. But in this world, nobody can survive when they're so "special" Its not socially accepted.
Then again, maybe I've grown up to be fake. Fake from the start. Its always been 1 and 2, and i've been quite happy in that period of time.

Since 2 is ever-present, it might be me....
No its not. Its just my brain.
So we've got the brain, where's the heart?
If i write anymore it'll just freak my readers out so I'll just stop here.

Hope this blows over soon...

11PM
10th August 2007

This is a creative and innovative idea that the Economics unit of SRJC have come up with. It is basically a mirror image of Project Work except for the absence of the all-hated; 3000 word; hard to collate; complicated Written Report.

Teamwork
Time Management
Cooperation
Score will be taken into account of the Promos

When i heard about this i was utterly delighted! I haven't had the chance like this for a very long time. As a Class Representative of 1A07_PAE, i didn't really have the chance to do anything except for going up stage and receiving the prize that Melvin and Joanna had won for us in the Chinese New Year Celebrations Ang Pao design competition.

Failed to become the 1st In-Charge of the Valentine's Day project of the Student Council Interns Student Liason Committee.

Second Orientation- I was an OGL but i didn't do much. People were appealing out of SRJC and they had to queue up in the SAC to gain permission to leave school before being able to approach other schools for interviews and appeals. So i ended up stuck at the SAC for most of the whole 3 days rather than spending time with my OG.

But now, i take it as my own personal pet project and a benchmark which i will use to evaluate my abilities. If I, as the Leader of this project and class, can motivate the class and win this project.... It'll be my win. muahhahahaa!