How powerless.
How vulnerable.
The way things turn out. I have no idea what to do anymore. My words aren't getting through, they're ears aren't working, no improvement at all.
The class ecosystem is waining.... Those who used to be dependable now aren't. Those who respected now despises. Those who tolerated now breaks. Those who annoy now still annoys.
I, as a class leader have failed. Failed to resolve things; failed to speak up. At the leadership seminar i learnt that i am the "delegative" type of leader. I just let the guys do what they want. I let them flower on their own. But look at what happened? I let things get out of hand and I, too, am caught in the midst of all the hate, anger, despise, gossip... All the shit.
What to do?
I can do nothing more.......
Its so worrying. The whole class. I worry about the way they are heading. I worry so, so much....
I can do nothing more......
So i must use my very last resort. Those of you who may know me will get a chance to see a whole new me right here right now.
Let us pray, to which ever faith you believe in, to which ever god you put your trust in. This is... after all... a prayer.
Let us pray that::
Everyone can get along fine
Those who are struggling academically may get their flying colours
He who is so blur may be more alert in the future
She who is so stressed and tense may get relief and smile again
She who seem to be in such pain, that it hurts just seeing, get well.
She whose barriers were broken now begin setting it up again.
She who lost her footing pick up her steps again
Those around her will give her a second chance, as i have.
Faith is what i need, believing is what i lack....
There is no choice...
6.50PM
21st September 2007
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